Frozen

By Brooke Author
Let him go 
I need to. 
    But he persists 
My aching love 
my cheaply lost 
sweet, scarred man.

The love I feel chokes

I struggle not to scream his name

I know the one thing he needs from me, is the worst thing of all 

leave him alone

If I die in a car crash, my last thoughts will be of my children and him

I can't answer the biggest question for myself
The why

Why did I do what I did

But he wasn't always the best to me, he didn't always have my back

let him go

Please God take this pain
that eats like acid at my core
Please help me let him go.




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